Double Edged Sword

by Ryan Garrett

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The brand new album, serving as a follow-up to 2013's Homecoming album. Once again, produced by Cody Gabehart (Of Sound Mind, Despite The Fallen, Against The Dying Light) and released on AboveTheSun Records. The album represents an 'edgier' sound (no pun intended) than previous albums, both musically and lyrically. The lead single, Closest Thing To Harlan, features folk and bluegrass elements over a heavily distorted guitar and dynamic drum beat. The bluesy guitar-driven Heart Shaped Balloons was released as the second single in early 2016, just before the album was officially announced for a March release date. Songs like "Tease Me" and "Fundamentals" have been a part of the live acoustic set for years, and now those tracks will be unleashed as full-ensemble standards for the first time. As always, all instruments are performed by Ryan Garrett himself, including acoustic, electric, and nylon-string classical guitars, 4 and 5 string basses, drums, cabasa, mandolin, banjo, piano and all keyboard tracks.

"The first single... "Closest Thing To Harlan" hits the listener with a balance of luring rhythms with a powerful dynamic of the building guitars and percussion leading us from a soft sense of calm to a powerful release of energy all at the right times." - Russell County News Register (Times Journal).

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released March 11, 2016

All songs written, composed, and performed by Ryan Garrett. Engineered and produced by Cody Gabehart. Album artwork by Headshot Designs.

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Track Name: Alone
I'll smile while it's easy
'Cause it gets tougher every day
So don't get used to the expressions I display
I remember wanting life to fly past me
Always thought that would help me out
But you know, that doesn't help me now
Because I'm falling faster now
I was never really on the ground

Is there anyone left who hasn't made that jump?
Is everybody too far gone?
Is there anyone here who hasn't sold their soul?
Or am I really out here on my own?
All the people that I love keep moving on
Is it too much to ask for some place to call home?
Is there anyone who hasn't gave up innocence for ignorance?
Cause I'm standing on the edge and I'm all alone

I'll love because it feels good
Giving sets me straight
And I don't belong anywhere that houses hate
I guess I'm just tired of burning bridges
Like I've done so many times
Through all the years self-doubt has changed my mind

I was nervous but now I'm sure
Of the direction I am heading for

And if you only go straight through life
You might not see what's to the left or to the right
And if you throw yourself into reverse
You'll just be dreaming ahead as you're being pulled back with the tide
You can go up, you can go down
Might have to turn yourself around
Just don't be afraid to color outside the borders
Because the only true way to go anywhere in life
Is just to open up your eyes and move forward

I'm all alone...
Track Name: Runaway Soul
So you're sick and tired of this life that you've been living in
And the news is old blues just like it's always been
Although I'd never evade this life just because it's tough
They say I ain't seen nothing yet but I think I've seen enough

Do you ever feel like the world has left you behind?
And all the wired up strings of your heart will not unwind
Well everybody's saying straighten up and act your age
But you can't afford room to grow on a minimum wage

And I say this without thinking about where my words might lead
And I say this not considering what I really need
Is it you or is it me? Are you still listening?
Let me know soon so I don't leave the phone to ring

Well you're just a runaway soul seeing black and blue
Sometimes you stop to ask yourself "Which color are you?"
When they're all telling you everything you don't wanna hear
Just let it go in and out the other ear

Running day to day gets so tough
Gotta keep going when the going gets rough
Do you think you've heard enough?
Do you think you've seen enough?

At the end of the day you're restlessly lying awake
And your mind reminds you of all your past mistakes
Well everybody's out there trying to be someone they're not
Just know that you're something original that they haven't got

Still you're sick and tired of this life that you've been living in
And the news is old blues just like it's always been
But when they tell you you've done a good job it cuts you like a knife
Because you're scared you'll be stuck in this rut for the rest of your life

And I say this without caring about where my words might lead
And I say this because what I want might not be what I need
It's not you but I wanna believe that you're still listening
Let me know soon so I don't leave the phone to ring
Let me know soon so I don't leave the phone to ring
Track Name: Heart Shaped Balloons
You've got the wrong man...you've got the wrong man...

I start my day with a cup of laughter
Never been good at anything else
Except the regret that follows after
Turns out I was laughing at myself
Standing in rooms where I once broke down
Opening doors I swore were locked
I kept searching for the hard place
As I was stuck between two rocks

But everyone speaks louder than me
And everyone works harder than me
If everyone's created equally
Then who are you to disagree?

Cause when you've got heart shaped balloons all pink and red
It's just something else to hang over your head
A double-edged sword cutting everyone into
I feel used, they feel abused
You say you understand, but I doubt it
I try to take a stand and say you've got the wrong man
Don't make me feel guilty about it

I start my night with a cup of poison
The only thing that I think I deserve
Surround myself with sex and noise
And anything else to calm my nerves
But these dreams and all these smiles
They comfort me like a quilt
These eyes that once stared down demons
Now cannot see through all this guilt

But everyone's entitled to be free
When everyone deserves some sympathy
Divide it up ever-so carefully
Just don't waste it all on me

Cause when you've got heart shaped balloons all pink and red
It's just something else to hang over your head
A double-edged sword cutting everyone into
(And me too)
I feel used, they feel abused
You say you understand, but I doubt it
I try to take a stand, Say you got the wrong man
Don't make me feel guilty about it

What on Earth is this?
And how did I get on your list
And how am I to blame?
Cause I never asked for this
No answered prayer, no granted wish
Do you even know my name?

Cause when you've got it made and they've got it hard
They try not to see the good in your heart
You could stand next to a work of art
And they still wouldn't see that you're falling apart
Because your smile and your wealth is all they see
Your name in their mouth is all they need
Cause they don't know what it's like to be up all night
Worried, wonderin' if someone's got something to eat
But that's just how it goes, they say
Enjoy it while you can, they say
You may be loved and you may be rich
But life for you is still a bitch

Because your words, they cut me deep
These riches don't mean a thing to me
A lost shepherd atop a hill so steep
All he can do is watch for sheep to die

When you got heart shaped balloons all pink and red
It's just something else to hang over your head
A double-edged sword cutting everyone into
(Except you)
But I feel used, they feel abused
You say you understand, but I doubt it
I try to take a stand
Try to make you understand
That you've got the wrong man...
Track Name: I'm Alright
Shut the door, I don't want it wide open like it was before
I'll let some light in every now and then
You see it's like a clear day but the sky's still gray
You never know how long it'll stay
It's like calling a phone with no dial tone
And leaving messages anyway

But I'm alright, I'm alright
I still got my dreams to help me sleep at night
I'm alright, I'm alright
I can wake up when I want but some days aren't worth the fight

But I can't change myself
And I can't explain myself
And I know it's strange myself
But it's something that I can't help
So don't try to figure it out
You'll just disappoint us both, I have no doubt
It's not that I'm scared of myself
I'm just afraid of everything else

You pretend I'm weak
I pretend I know
And it don't bother me
But you act like it's wrong
To carry the weight of the world
And everything under the sun
It's no stranger to my shoulders
Time to drop it all at once

But I'm alright, I'm alright
I still got my dreams to help me sleep at night
I'm alright, I'm alright
I can wake up when I want but some days aren't worth the fight
I'll be fine in the morning but until then goodnight.
Track Name: Closest Thing To Harlan
From the blood that's spilled from our abandoned heartbeats
To the riverbeds that bring ourselves to be
We saw you drink from fountains
Far away from any mountains
But it's the closest thing to Harlan you'll ever see

I was setting fires to lakes as they were freezing
I was melting ice they said would never break
I fell asleep inside for years
Tossed and turned my way down here
But if it's the closest thing to Harlan, I'll never wake

But if hope is only lost then it could surely be found
You just have to take a look around
And if dreams come when we sleep, then why are we awake
Just waiting for the blessings to drop down?
You know you have to love it
And you have to keep it close
Because the demon that raised questions
Is the one you need the most
And it's not the destination that makes you
It's how long you're on the road...

It's a catch-22 for all the ages
It's a vicious circle weaved inside our minds
The only thing that's dead
Is the voice inside your head
Saying "It's the closest thing to Harlan you'll leave behind"

She was standing by the gates as they were closing
Wandering at a loss for where to go
The land is flat, the trees are bare
Dead end choices everywhere
But it's the closest thing to Harlan she'll ever see

And if hope is only lost then it can surely be found...
Track Name: Addicted
This highway's paved with eggshells
At the crossroad of our common ground
I've been walking in circles
But you'd be surprised at what I found
Cause this town is no place to hide for an introvert
But it could be worse
I'm not saying I'm in love
I'm just saying I wish the whole world worked the way we work

Cause you and I
We are addicted to everything
And if you don't believe me
Just try to take it away and see

I feel the embers raging from the overzealous bitter man
Threatening to gun down anything he doesn't understand
Some people these days will only try to win the race
To demean second place
It appears some are close behind
But it's you they're trying to chase
It's a disgrace

There's people pushing me to my limits
They're shoving all the way to the edge
There's people setting ridiculous expectations
And I've got wars waged inside my head
There's people telling me I'll surely fail
They've all trapped me here in this cell
There's people shoving ideas down my throat
There's folks that only speak to tell me no
There's corruption and fatigue
Depression and anxiety
There's people out there telling me I won't amount to anything
There's people always damning me for my point of view
Constantly telling me what to do
And then there's you...

This highway's paved with eggshells
At the crossroad of our common ground
I've been walking in circles
But you'd be surprised at what I found
A little more choice, a little less decision
A little more spirit, a little less religion
You don't know you need something until it scares you to death
And you leave me out of breath
Cause you and I...
Track Name: Imagination
The typical silver moon looks gold this afternoon
And all this quiet weather makes the sky look just like leather
But it's not all that blue, no it looks more like you
Stars are bright like the whitest smile you've not revealed in such a while
But I can't see through all the stained glass teardrops
The city lights pass by like they'll never stop
Have you really been right here through all these twisted years?
Have I been wasting time in my own fear?
Or was it just my imagination?
Was it just my imagination?

These past regrets fall like ashes from cigarettes
Across my life these memories scatter
Except the ones that really matter
Like the time you saw me through and all the work you had to do
Just to get me to see that you were right in front of me
But these days it gets so hard to earn some trust
Everyone says Hey, you've got nothing to offer us
We're never satisfied. Within each other's company we hide.
But all along you felt it somewhere deep inside
Or was it just my imagination?

The objects in your mind may be closer than they appear
But sometimes it gets so hard to see it all so clear
And I know I overthink it all or so it seems
But I swear to God I know what I mean

And I can't see through all the stained glass teardrops
The city lights pass by like they'll never stop
Have you really been right here through all these twisted years?
Have I been wasting time in my own fear?
Or was it just my imagination?
Was it just my imagination?
Was it just my imagination?
Track Name: Take You Out
Lately they all tell me I should stop
And let it all go instead
Of trying to fly you to the top
And set you off over my head
Remember when we were young and so full of doubt?
Acting like we knew what we were talking about
But times are so much darker now

Call me crazy, call me insecure
But I'm hearing those voices again in my head
Call me crazy if you're sure

Because I'm scared they're out to get me
Something tells me they're onto us
And I refuse to drag you with me
Cause you're the only thing I can trust
They strip you down and put you to the test
Then dress me up with fear and doubt
And I'm the one who got you in this mess
I'm not gonna let them take you out

Should I shut up and go back home?
Would it even matter to you?
Do you even know what's going on?
Or are you just getting through?
Remember back at the start when you were telling me
That I could be anything that I wanted to be?
I want to be the one that sets you free

Those condescending zealots will break your heart
Someday I'll try to break it all down for you
But tonight I don't know where to start

Because I swear they're out to get me
Something tells me they're onto us
And I refuse to drag you with me
Cause you're the only thing I can trust
They strip you down and put you to the test
Then dress me up with fear and doubt
And I'm the one that got you in this mess
I'm not gonna let them take you out.

Why don't you just run away?
And live to see another day
Cause it's not life you're living here
It's not life if you live in fear
Tomorrow's never gonna come
If the darkest night has just begun
I've never known an easy way

So why don't you just run away?

Not gonna let em, Not gonna let em
Not gonna let em take you out
Not gonna let em, Not gonna let em
Not gonna let em take you out...
Track Name: Tease Me
So it looks like you've been sold
About time you come around you start to leave again
Right when I start to believe again
You're like a lost and found that's been lost again
But I'm not ready to give up on you my friend

Once again you try and tease me
But you're the only one that could ever please me

So go ahead and cut your corners
I'll go ahead and pay it forward
After all you were my only friend
I'm in between and you're appointed
My words went dry and you were anointed
But you'll be disappointed in the end
Then again maybe I'm the one that's losing

Hey, today's just another day
And I'm still out of the way waiting for the call
That tells me I either won or lost it all
You're like a lost and found that's lost it all
But I'm just around the corner at no cost at all

Once again you try and tease me
You know just how to capture and release me

So it looks like you've been sold
About time you come around...
Track Name: Fundamentals
I will not bend, I will not break
I will not try to comprehend the sense it doesn't make
We are put on God's green Earth
For what? It isn't clear
Until we leave our quiet comfort zones
And abolish all the fear

So why are we still tripping on words that have no meaning?
And why are we still pushing out verbs
It isn't something that we do or that we start
It's something deep inside our hearts
There are no fundamentals of being who you are

It's more than I can take
I will not bend, I will not break
I will not try to understand the sense it doesn't make
We are put on this cruel world
For what? It isn't clear
Until we leave our quiet comfort zones
And abolish all the fear

All these rules and regulations
Expectations and obligations
They do not define who I've become
And I will not be ashamed to think
To speak, to feel, or to use this ink
To write down anything I can
So you know my work here isn't done...
Track Name: Look How Gone I Am
(instrumental)